The List that I never make it to..!

Hey Story, I am shocked today and you asked why? I have given an HR interview for a job role that I wanted to work for and I got rejected. Rejection is not the thing that shocks me but when both of the interviews gone “excellent” and it was too obvious that I will get in and then I did not, is the thing that I am talking about.

I am good at reading and learning things from childhood and I have marked the milestone that I am also proud of. yet there are times and things that swallow my confidence to the deep of sorrows but believe me I won’t let it happen.

When I was in the 10th standard, I dreamt of a dream that was …To become a software engineer “some-day”. I remain a dreamer for a long time. I worked hard for it and made it to the top 20 candidates in my state Rajasthan in 10th standard and I was 7th student rank wise. That day made me believe that now I can not only dream of things but also can complete them.

I dreamt of getting Computer Science in IIT Colleges of my country So I decided to prepare for JEE Advanced. In the early days, there were mistakes I did that put me behind lot of candidates but I would say I woke up in the time. I did everything I could in the time for improving my test results to the level that I can assure that I will get a seat in JEE Adv but I could never do it.

The night of the JEE Adv exam was black as much I never felt and My Rank was 16K first time appearing for JEE Adv and 14K in JEE Main. I was getting a seat for Electronics in good colleges in NIT Colleges but I remembered that I want a computer science at IIT Colleges.

It was a hard decision to repeat the whole year of study, the whole year of attending classes, solving all same questions again, eating the same mess food again, and giving the same tests again. But Hey Dream! Anything for you.

In the starting, everything looked easy and My score was good but as the course progressed my marks started to go low again but not less than the marks of the previous year. I never lose hope, I have two personalities in me one gets disappointed when it does not get results, and another one picks it up and put it again on its feet and I start walking again.

That year I was almost certain that I will not get a computer science seat in any IIT because rank under 1000 was just impossible after seeing my test results at this point of time but I thought I will not care about the results now and will do as much best I can do. in these times I have to artificially motivate myself, exactly I had gone 3–4 times internet cafe and I watch the autobiography of APJ Abdul kalam and that motivates me to keep working hard.

I appeared for the exam when I came out of the exam hall after talking to people they say the paper was easy but I was wondering why did not feel the same. Maybe because I had too much respect for the exam not be easy at all and I attempted questions according to strategies based on the previous year's results.

I scored 150 marks and I got a rank of 18K If it was marks of the previous year this could be the rank of 2500 rank in IIT JEE but remember that the guys said the paper was easy so that’s it.

one more thing that was happening parallelly was my jee main score this time my score was 199 more than 30 marks more than the previous marks and the rank of 8811. This score got me Computer science in NIT Jalandhar.

Here again, I did mistakes in my first year of college that reflect in my CG until today. I started working hard as soon as I woke up here but I was finding myself behind many people and struggling with the things that nobody was struggling with.

I was working hard for My CG but that thing does not increase by the good result of one semester. I was also very bad at making logic up till 2 years of a degree then I started doing the coding. First It was so hard and I keep losing my consistency of practice.

Then Corona came and there was a lot of time in a home that was saved from attending useless college lectures and after 6 months I found myself in a confident position in my tech portfolio that was required for interviews for a software development engineer role.

But what was the thing that made me write my whole life story today? A few days ago I was shortlisted for the interview rounds of the product engineer role in Mahindra Comviva. I gave a technical round that lasted 30 minutes and the Interviewer looks very happy with my answers. He was impressed by my project and He said to me that He will recommend me on my face.

After Technical Round I gave the HR round and the First 5 minutes Hr was without video but after that, She came face to face. She asked many questions and I answered the best answers. She asked so many questions that indicated an interest in my candidature and I also asked 2 questions about the company and her profession.

After this interview and talking to 2 or 3 people I was almost sure that I will get selected but today I got the result and I was not on the list. I could not understand some of my friends and who were good, equivalent, and looked less expert were also selected But I did not.

Saying “Remembering the past that I came from, these things are nothing when compared, I am sure I will overcome this..!” I fulfill my motive to artificially motivate myself.